Healthy Energy

I learn so much from this show about life. I hope it never ends. I love the part where Cesar says, "He needs to work on calm and assertive energy. He can't really be assertive because he feels bad. And feeling bad is weakness."

It taught me that our energy that we carry, is directly correlated to what we believe. If we feel shame, guilt, etc. that is unhealthy. That is an unhealthy state to be in, and yet so many of us remain in this state for a long time. It harms our spirit to believe things that bring shame and guilt.

Conviction is one thing, but it is for a time and then intended to move us forward into repentance. We must live in the moment. Live day by day and release those things which we have repented for. Guilt and shame mean we have stayed in a moment too long. The moment is over, but our spirit it stuck there. The only way to move the spirit forward is through either repenting, or forgiving.

I hear Cesar say certain things and it just connects for me in life.

"I am not here to tell you that you cannot be aggressive. But I am here to tell you that you have another choice."

"I was really apprehensive at first (I didn't trust), because of past experiences, but little by little that feeling ebbed away. In the end it was a joy."

I love this stuff.

Vulnerability:: Part I

I could not have written this any better. Jen Disney is the bomb. Genuinely. ;) Check out her blog post on vulnerability. The video was like a punch in my gut.

So this leads me to the realization that I don't really pay very close attention to how I'm feeling. Is anyone else out there like me? I think I start feeling disconnection way off in some island of my soul, and then I run to people and distract myself with meaningless chatter. But do I ever stop and consider the source of my disconnection? Or even put a name to my feelings?

Nooo....

Kind of like hunger. I don't really stop each day and say "Oh. I am feeling hungry now. I shall stop what I am doing, and feed my body." But rather, I unconsciously gravitate towards the food. And now that I think about it, the more disconnected I am from the realization of my hunger, the worse I eat. If I am all stressed out and forget to pay attention to that feeling, I tend to grab whatever is available.

Hmmm... interesting.